And the emptiness don't leave me alone
god i shoved myself with this disgruntled beliefs and the ever keeping introspection..............constant being only the loneliness that
followed me in the day and dark alike .
but there is no time for these thoughts to strike my imagination cuz' now i no longer want be the same i used to be .
i crawled and groped in dark beneath my self-imposed humiliations i was made to think like i had no conscience but that for what i know i not true.
The day , this moment is full of my own fears and apprehension all channeled for my exams that are going underway .Strength of material the name only
instills the bone chill in me.all is going to be the day that tomorrow gonna be...
Now ... this v-day has been a cold turkey in ma basket as usual , i need not specify
god i shoved myself with this disgruntled beliefs and the ever keeping introspection..............constant being only the loneliness that
followed me in the day and dark alike .
but there is no time for these thoughts to strike my imagination cuz' now i no longer want be the same i used to be .
i crawled and groped in dark beneath my self-imposed humiliations i was made to think like i had no conscience but that for what i know i not true.
The day , this moment is full of my own fears and apprehension all channeled for my exams that are going underway .Strength of material the name only
instills the bone chill in me.all is going to be the day that tomorrow gonna be...
Now ... this v-day has been a cold turkey in ma basket as usual , i need not specify
the reasons being all same .
The truth is i don't even want to feel fuckin' special on this damn day its just a fad to be overjoyed or some special clandestine dating sprees.
Wanted to talk her ,it sprang to me just like everything else does but i decide or my own ego decided against it the thought come and go automatically
you yourself don't have to react to anything wen it comes to dwelling into your conscience.So for now i cant talk to anyone just need to clear up the mess that
have assumed the shape of some load over me or i have made the same out of a seemingly okay situation .be it.
I need a clear cutting break to run away and think whats going on .
Oh! well i need my own time for this all and decide what to end up and what to take up cuz' everything is rising over my head at an alarming rate ,so before that
goes away way too far i got to get hold onto it. ostensibly , to push me up a further limit . i have plans take up earning money only from now own cuz' i need to do it.
The truth is i don't even want to feel fuckin' special on this damn day its just a fad to be overjoyed or some special clandestine dating sprees.
Wanted to talk her ,it sprang to me just like everything else does but i decide or my own ego decided against it the thought come and go automatically
you yourself don't have to react to anything wen it comes to dwelling into your conscience.So for now i cant talk to anyone just need to clear up the mess that
have assumed the shape of some load over me or i have made the same out of a seemingly okay situation .be it.
I need a clear cutting break to run away and think whats going on .
Oh! well i need my own time for this all and decide what to end up and what to take up cuz' everything is rising over my head at an alarming rate ,so before that
goes away way too far i got to get hold onto it. ostensibly , to push me up a further limit . i have plans take up earning money only from now own cuz' i need to do it.
the big proposition is not loneliness but the great loss of my love for everything else.
There is no more of the same old energy maybe i am sucked inside out.
this somehow is gonna form my cycle of woes.
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